Yeah, and again .. I'm at fragile state...

There are so much things spinning in my head .. makes me scared .. confused .. stressed out .. and trembling ..

Even I'm scared to go out for a little walk ..

I don't wanna talk about it ... I just want to forget it .. but how ?

I just .. can't believe things ..

The world I thought is never real ...

I'm just pathetic .. I think the world is just beautiful .. and I'm surrounded by good things ..

But I'm wrong ...

I'm crisis of confidence ...

I think I was the 'right' ... but why there are so much 'wrong' ??

Then I think , maybe I'm the 'wrong' ??

In the other hands , I'm lonely ..

It's beautiful if you have someone precious ..

But what if you aren't precious to anyone .. ?

My precious one is precious of others too ..

And he is happier with others ... I didn't say if he is not happy to be with me ..

And if he is with others , I'm all alone ...

Cz I only have him ...

Shut up .. ! I know it's my fault .. I'm too dependent upon him ..

I'm the one who made this situation of me ..

But what can I do .. ?

I tried to get along with others ... I have friends ... even good friends ...

But maybe I'm just a 'somebody' to them ..

Cz I have no good .. always gloomy ..

Yea , gloomy ...

I never want to be like this .. but with all of my problems .. what can I do .. ?

I know with my current state , I won't ever make any progress ...

But it's so hard for me to move on ...

I need help ...

Wait, no ...

I need to be understand by others ...

But it's just a dream .. I couldn't event talk to someone ...

I'm too scared ...

Cz I feel .. there is no one who could understand me ..

please don't blame me for what I feel ... I need support ...

Please ... :')